Ingenuity to boot...

The boots that I work in, due to the separation of the front of the sole from the rest of the shoe, have been irritating me for a while now. While I was at work this morning I decided to remedy the annoying newly created mouth of my boot before it helped me break a bone or an expensive piece of equipment. Those three circles in the tip of my boot are the heads of screws that have been driven through my boot. I decided to run some screws through the sole of my boot with the drill in the shop and then I sawed the exposed ends of the screws off. What fun...At least it works. Frankenstein-esk, hap-hazardly repaired, old and worn out work boots will be this years summer must-have.

It's dangerous business walking out your front door.

I still need a vacation. This is one of the strangest summers I have ever lived through. There is a lot going on and I am having trouble keeping up with my life. I am still very happy and am not overly stressed out, but am experiencing a strange feeling that I cant quite put my finger on. I am tired. Oh so very tired. I am tired in more than just the physical sense and am starting to worry about this. The knockout mechanism: The human body's way of saying, "You clearly don't know what you are doing, so why don't you lay down for a while and I'll take over." I have no idea who my friends are anymore. Everyone is out to get eachother and I just don't care enough to keep up with it. I think I would rather just be oblivious to all of the cut throat and fake lifestyles. This is New Mexico, Mexico's red-headed step child. This is not California or New York. Why can't we just be like the simpletons that we are portrayed to be on T.V. or in the movies. I guess it is more exciting to pretend we are on an episode of Laguna Beach (or Beverly Hills, 90210 for those of you older readers...don't worry I think you are much cooler if you have no idea what Laguna Beach is.) I don't think there is much need for a chorus of "Why Can't We Be Friends?" quite yet. I would love to be able to be left to my complacency, apathy, distrust of whatever I please, or whatever you want to call it. Despite what this may sound like I am extremely happy. My GOD gives me constant bliss no matter how crappy my day, week, or month is going. If you don't know GOD....I know you are missing out. Talk to me if you have to. You can come to my house every day and study with me if you want to. Just let GOD into your heart because He wants to be there so very bad, but He is also a gentleman, and will wait patiently until you allow Him in. Well, I will have to see if I make it through this very strange first summer out of high school alive. Good thing I am working all day for five days a week. I almost wish I was working more than that. I would have less time for a moch social life and more time to make money for the school year where most things are normal. Funny side-note...Isn't it weird that when you are in grade school living with your parents that summer could not come any sooner and couldn't end any faster, but when you finally move away from mommy and daddy you really can't wait for school to start again so you can move back and get back to what is your new norm. I miss my family terribly. I like seeing my mom and dad very much, but I enjoy my life in Lubbock immensly. I would love to see some of my other family as well. I miss everyone so very much. Enough of the digression. People are weird. GOD is GREAT!
"I can do all things through Him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13

Time for a nap..or a vacation...

Goodness everything changes so fast in life. It may sound cliche but the minute you think you have life figured out, your wrong. One must realize that there is one and only ONE constant in all of this existence. God was before, He is now, and He will be after. I love my GOD with all of my heart...and I am always certain my family will be here for me. Life is a crazy roller coaster sometimes...but it would be boring if it weren't. My brain is a mess right now. I don't get a lot of sleep due to work and I am just running on low lately. I think this is going to be a big transition in my life. Going to college changes a person a lot. GOD is holding me more tightly than ever and allowing me to be free and grow all a the same time. It is crazy how He can do that. My GOD is AMAZING...don't you ever forget that. Keep me in your prayers. I need a vacation....and a really pretty girl might help too.

And now I must work

I have started going to work and the electic company this week. I am very tired as I have to get up very much earlier than I am used to. Everything in a person's life changes once you go to college. When you are in high school you can't stand the school year and look forward to the summer with much anticipation. I am now anticipating the coming school year more than this summer. Everything is flip flopped. I am enjoying not having to worry about grades and exams, but I am having to work much harder. At least I am getting a pay check which is always lovely. I am ready to move back to Lubbock and go to school again. I am not ready to get up at 6 every morning for the rest of the summer to go to work. Here goes summer. We will see how it goes. GOD is still GREAT and I hope you have not forgotten.

Done and done..

I am home for the summer. Wow. One year of college is done. I start to work for the summer on monday. School starts again on the 27th of August. I have a long summer ahead of me and hope it is good. This post seems very choppy to me. This elongated sentence is here solely to break the monotonous rhythem that resounded through the prior sentences and make this post seem slightly less robotic and precussive. God is GREAT and don't you forget it.

I am very, very...upset (all explitives deleted)

Somehow, I managed to get a "B" on my calculus final, which gives me a final grade of a "B" in the class. Needless to say, I am exceedingly upset and feeling very inadequate. Just as I suspected I am feeling very mediocre and am expecting to feel this way for many weeks to come. There is no amount of "well "B" is still a good grade" that will cheer me up but I appreciate your caring. I am usually good at math and I dispise settling for a "B" in any class (except chemistry). I left that exam thinking that I only missed one. Apparently I was dillusional. I tried to go to see my calc. professor but she was not in her office. Very sad times. Sometimes I wonder if God tries to use these things that are extremely important to me to show that he is more important. I doubt God is wrong so I must be doing something wrong. Or maybe he uses instances like this to try to knock my down a notch. I don't find that very amusing or fair because others get to make good grades and boast about it and praise THEMSELVES more than I ever would. Now I am rambling about things that are just very abstract and probably irrelevant. I don't know what to do now. This class was the only grade that was important to me, and now it is over and the only thing lacking is me being pleased with the result. Bad moods are no fun. Slow me down, Lord.

Calculus Final Today..

I have my final in calculus today. It will not be my hardest exam, but it is the most important to me and it has proven the most stressful. Mathematics is what I am good at and what I will be dealing with for the rest of my life so this kind of stuff is big to me. Lord, please don't let me choke. Give me the intelligence to get through this test with ease. Pray for me.